Margie ....I miss you so much!

Lately I"ve really been thinking about my dear friend Margie, She was a woman who was filled with life! She was such a good friend to me in my time of need, as I was in hers. As I grew to love her more and more each day, the cancer that was consuming her body also grew,finally God gave her peace.

I often go to her resting place, sit and think of all the things we used to do, she loved going for rides in my car! She loved to shop! She loved black cherry Ice Cream! She loved going for coffee, and oh yes she loved pink and purple flowers.

Margie cared about me. She would always say things will get better when I truly thought things wouldn't. She also poured out her heart to me, when she was fighting the fight for her life. We would have intense chats while she was in the hospital, and I'd have to remind her ....don't give up, like she always reminded me.

When I was planning my wedding she was in the hospital, this would be her last visit there, I gave her the very first wedding invitation, and pinned it on her wall for her to look at. She was so excited about the day that she knew she wouldn't live for.

One of the long nights as I sat with her , she asked me ...what does your dress look like, I started explaining in detail the dress I had not bought yet, she didn't know that but I needed to give her a picture of what it would be like cause she wouldn't be able to make it to the wedding. I did go out and get the dress I described, and i know she was watching from Heaven, but as I explained to her I looked at her , her eyes were closed and the tears were going down her cheeks.

I miss her so much, She was a huge part of my life..... So today I went to visit her again and brought her a gift ... thought it was finally summer and good weather so I spruced up her place.....here are some pictures, I know she's smiling from Heaven eating Black Cherry Ice Cream!

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"Following Your Dreams"

This morning I was chatting away with a friend online who I'd say is one of the funniest people I have ever met, He's disabled but sure doesn't use that to bring himself down. He thinks funny stuff all the time, looking at the humor of life, and wow , he's just to much!! LOL

We starting talking about "following your dreams" and yes you can only amagine what his dreams were .........they were funny! But you know what , they were his dreams! That got me thinking , what dreams would I love to follow? So I sat down , shut my eyes , and thought ......ummmmmm follow your dreams.

One thing I thought about was to be able to be the best I could be. Just not focus on what others want or expect of me. I thought wow that would make life so much easier don't you agree? To be able to be "yourself " and for that to be OK.

I thought abit more on it and came up with Positive ........to be positive in what you believe in or do. Yeah there will be times that one would love to throw in the towel ,everyone has them days now. Its very easy to get yourself into a down rut......and its very hard to get yourself out!

Thinking the good in everything is very hard to do somedays, especially if things aren't going your way that day. But really , what does it help to dog or complain about it , it won't change it that's for sure. One of the things I'm doing now when feeling that way is , go do something you like , grab that book that is good , play with the dog, go do the dishes if it takes your mind off things..................or take time to PRAY.

I will be the first to say I'm far from perfect , but that doesn't mean I can't try. I will fail I'm sure , but that means pick yourself up , dust yourself off , and try again.

Following your dreams doesn't mean you have to have everything in life perfect , easy, etc what it means to me is that you believe in things , then you can follow thru on them.
One could sit here thinking wow wish I was in good shape, thinking isn't going to cut it now is it? So follow your dream , start with that , I did. Not always easy though, got a chip craving bigtime , let me tell ya!!!

So whatever your dreams are ...big or small...Don't give up on them, they can become real someday.

Have to go now ....I'm following a dream!

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