Alot of mixed feelings today

Here I sit , its early afternoon, my eyes are burning , and I've been lacking sleep. It's the joys of working Night shifts and I'm not used to doing them. I'm not saying they are bad , its just not normal for me to get up a few times a night, I'm a sleeper ..... Oh I can sleep!

This afternoon I may just have a nap who knows , got to be back at work for 5 pm to do another over niter, then after that I will have one more over night shift and then back to a day shift for half a day and then will be back later in the evening on Friday to spend the night again.

Just looking around the house here , my puppy is on one couch crashed out and oh the cat is on the other one doing the same thing............must be nice to be a pet huh?? You get someone to open and close the door behind you , You get waited for , You get fed , and even cleaned up after , You get affection , and wow You don't have to pay any bills.......yup pets are darn lucky I'd say ....LOL

We are going thru a cold spell right now , Mexico's been on my mind ....AGAIN! But I know , there isn't a trip this year. Who knows when we will go on another one. Probably not for afew years I'd say, actually I know it won't be for a few years. ........ oh well thank god for memories.

My best friend, lost her hubby this past week, That has been on my mind alot. I wish I was closer to help her go thru this tough time in her life. I know she's happy that he's not suffering anymore but I'm sure she will be so lonely without him. I guess that's all I'll say about this cause I don't want to break down and cry about it anymore today.

Next week when work hours go back to normal I"m going to give myself what I call a "ME DAY" yup you know the kind where you just go out and do something fun and for yourself? I think I'll go to Brandon and visit a friend who's going to have a baby soon , and also my cuz who has MS. Then do abit of shopping and then come back in the evening. Yup a day out, away from this city where everything is always the same, where nothing exciting happens. Just thinking of it , makes me smile!!

Missing my grand kids alot, they are always on my mind, I'd call Nevada today but with my mood being Little shaky today I'll pass! Brayden is to tiny for the phone calls yet and Jaida lives with her mom and step daddy so I only talk to her when shes' with my son and his family.

Nevada is a angel! She looks at me and gives me the biggest hugs a grandma could ever want, she looks you straight in the eyes puts her tiny hands on your cheeks and says "grandma I love you" it just melts me every time.Talk about little one's , they never judge ya, doesn't matter if or what one thinks you did , they love you the way people should love each other , sad to say , makes for the little one's to be the smarter than most huh?

On a good note, my hubby went to court to day to discuss a speeding ticket he got last summer, The police officer who charged him wasn't there , he was in some kinda training seminar in Brandon, So they said my hubby could remand the date of court or go on and admit he was speeding with a explanation which he did , the judge let the fee's go and also the De-merits not be put on his drivers , instead it was made record that he was guilty of speeding and that will stay on his record for 1 year , so he knows he can't get another one .... he will be driving slower .......LOL , that made his day!!!

Well I guess that's all the ramblings I have for today, Think its time for that nap now.

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Unreal kinda day.

Well last night my workday started at 5 pm with my client , we had a busy evening and then finally got her to go to sleep about midnight. It was a long night , she gets up at least 3 or more times a night, So come morning I think I was more tired than before I went to sleep.

The day shift did go fast , so that was a good thing, then during the hour or so between running back to her I went to visit afew sick ppl who are in the hospital , then I walked over to the Personal Care and visited one who lives there, then off I went back to my Client to finish my shift with her.

Came home at 5ish, was told that one of my best friends hubby had passed away this morning, It was like ok , now someone just sucked the last breath outta me!! I was so drained and now I was upset , so off to the bedroom I went and ,I feel asleep, About 2 hours later I woke up. Grabbed a shower , and finally had no choice but to make something to eat cause I was starting to get a big headache so yup at 9 pm we had supper.

Now it's almost 11 pm , I think I"ll just crash on the couch , until the house can become quiet and dark, then I'm sure I'll sleep , oh not to be awakened would be a nice thing tonight.

I called my friend who's hubby passed away, we chatted abit , oh she's so going to be lonely, right now she has to keep her head up and get thru his funeral and the many things to think about and get ready for. I'm hoping to make it out for the funeral but not sure due to my work shifts and I can't get any off due to my boss being away in the states. We will see what happens and when the funeral will be , but she know's I'm thinking of her deeply.

Well , my brain hurts, my eyes burn , and I'm so numb. So I"m outta here !

Be grateful for what your given , cause tomorrow it could be gone , now isn't that the truth huh? ...........night all !

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January is almost over, did it go fast!

I'm so happy that this month has been flying by fast! I don't care much for winter and so I"m waiting for spring and summer , Then I spend alot of time walking, cause is cheap and takes up alot of time. So I"ll head out for a walk and sometimes its like 4 hours or so later I'll land up back at home. Ohhhhh yeah I miss those days !

I can't stand this constant being inside! Evenings are the hardest part of my days! Some days I'm so tired of waiting for the evening to be over that I just say forget this .....I"m going to bed and Yup I"m gone to sleep , its only 8 pm!!! The days are to be longer now so that's a sign that I'll make it Thu ..........grrrrrr the winter!

Tonight I start work at 5 pm, this is a good thing, We are going out so that will take care of the evening , then when we get back we will have a wine cooler and then I"ll fight to stay up til midnight , cause my client watches TV that long..... and then yes ....we will finally get to go t sleep, I"m hoping she lets me sleep this time ,and then will come the morning and I'll do the things I need to do with her Thu out that day , and by 5 pm my work shift will be over and I'll come home.

Once I get home I"ll wipe out my freezer that's empty and get it ready for fresh meat that I have coming soon. Yup that's so good. I gave the other meat away to a family in need so I got that big task all done. Update!!! I finished wiping out the freezer , so that is now done too!!

Well I should get outta here now , I have some laundry to do here , I want to pack my over night bag and my bedding that will stay at her house. I need to do the dishes before I can leave and well ......looks around the house the rest will have to wait.

Hope you all have a great day ! I am!!.

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Was a good day today......Smiles!

Wow started my day by sleeping in! Yup was lights out til after 10 am now how sweet is that! Then I bundled up and walked up town to get the truck, do some running around , went for coffee, ran around some more. Came home , fought with my kitchen sink cause the water has been trickling out of it and I was getting worried that the pipe was going to freeze, I don't know what I did but it worked , water is running well now, so guess what???? The dishwasher was put to work!
I ran into Paster Scott uptown , I wanted to get in touch with him and glad I did , I have some meat in my freezer I need to give away and I really wanted it to go to someone in need. He told me about a single mom who's dealing with alot and had three children, I said perfect but does she own a freezer cause I have more than what can be kept in a fridge freezer, He said not to worry , if need be he was sure someone in the church could help out with storing it for her, so yup cleaning out the freezer will be tomorrow's task.
I'm so glad its going to someone who needs it, I don't need to meet this lady , cause it's not what is important I just want her to have a easier time feeding her babies. I was told she had surgery on her neck , I"m sure that was stressful and painful on its own, and plus taking care of her children hasn't been easy , so I do hope this does help her out abit. We who have it good in life should go and help those that are in hard times , I do believe that and I do feel good about helping where and when I can.
This evening I will be having a quiet evening at home, my hubby has bowling and I'll enjoy a quiet house. Been cleaning so its not so crazy tomorrow , but then again I just got a call and the truck is getting serviced tomorrow morning so I can' t go anywhere anyways......its all good. So all in all it was a great day!!!
Who know's what tomorrow will bring , thats the good thing about living.

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Friday.......and I'm draggin!

I am so beat ! It's like I have to force myself to do things today. My head is pounding and really I haven't done anything today that would cause me to have a headache. My back is killing me , the tests I did in Winnipeg weren't easy and I sure found out how much I've hurt after that appointment. But no use complaining , It doesn't help , I still have to keep doing what I do daily or it won't get done. I did tackle some of the housework , so I don't feel totally useless. Upstairs is almost done.
Got to investigate the basement though, I don't spend much time down there anymore , a hour here or there that's it, but company is coming over tonight so I do have to see that rec room , I know it needs cleaning that's for sure.
Bill's cuz and his girlfriend are coming over tonight , they are fun kids and I'm glad they like visiting us old ppl .....lmao. They are going to a ski resort about a hour from our home. Their snow boards look cool!
I was thinking what should I make for supper and then thought , what the hell , they suggested on the phone going out for supper , so here I'm thinking what's the difference if I pay for groceries and slave in the kitchen , or say screw this and pay for us to dine out, so we are dining out!!
It won't be a late night , Leah was a sweetie and thought it would be a great time for playtime so she started to bark at 4 am and at 4:30 I got up. Let her outside and then down to the basement we went and played with her toys til about 5:30 or so , then I fell asleep on the couch, woke up after 6 am and put her back into the kennel and I went back to sleep . Bad enouh my client was up every two hours the night before when I worked a night shift but geez now the dog........I better sleep all night tonight, I work in the morning!
Well enough about my day , I have a basement to clean remember , so off I go to see what kinda damage is done down there.......chow all

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What a busy start to a week that's almost over!

Monday morning , started with a doc appointment here in Dauphin, then off to get the truck a oil change , and then I packed a bag and went to Steinbach for a few days. I had a doctor appointment in Winnipeg concerning my back on Tuesday, so my sister Joan and her daughter Jody went with me to that appointment. I had to be in that doc's office for almost 2 hours of testing , which I did and boy did I pay dearly later that evening!!
After that appointment we went to Mongo's Grill ....awesome place!!! If you ever want a amazing experience go there! They grill the food that you put into a bowl , so everything your eating is something you have placed into the bowl.....really cool let me tell ya!
Then we headed to few factory outlet stores and looked around which was fun. The wind was crazy and very strong so we called it a day and headed back to Steinbach.
I spent the evening with my son and his family, oh Nevada just loves me to pieces and she's such a sweetie! After I left there I went for a ride to see what's changed in that city and then went back to where I"m crashing , my mom and dad's place.
You know sleeping at my parents sure brought back memories , of childhood. The bedroom I slept in was once mine, It's so small and as I laid there in that bed I thought of how many ways I could change that room around??? (laughing) I did like it that it's so cold in the room , my mom has home made blankets that are so heavy and there's nothing like using one when you have to cover your nose with it due to the room is soooooooo cold , I loved it!!!
I brought Nevada to day school the day I was leaving to head back home, she loves it when I bring her there. Jaida came running up to me and hugged me as usual she's so sweet, I said my goodbyes to them and told them, its time for Grandma to go home and take care of Papa Bill and Leah.......so Nevada said " I love you " as she does often.
The roads were ugly in the morning , but I did venture out on them and worked my way back home , unpacked my travel bag , so that I could repack it, yup you read right .... I grabbed my bedding , etc and off to work I went , did a night shift followed by a day shift , that makes for along shift! I"m sore from that doc's appointment , I"m tired from being up 2 hours thru out the night with my client. I've had my bubble bath and now I"m going to vegg out!
So here we are and its Thursday already .......go figure another week is almost done. I have tomorrow off , then working the weekend , then I have 3 days off and then I"m working 13 twelve hour shifts back to back ......yup Do you think after that I'll need a holiday??? Or a Nevada & Jaida fix???? Or a nice motel room with a hot tub in it???? or ......never mind I better stop dreaming !! ( haha)
Well I blogged now , my niece will be very happy with me ! She's a snoop and has been checking my blog site a lot (He he) So on that note , I"m done blogging.

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Like the song goes "Thank God for Kids!"

You know sometimes when I think I"ve just had enough , and ready to cave a child can bring you right back to the mood your to be in , not a sad one! Im so grateful for my Grand daughters they pick me up when they don't even know that they have!! My Grandson Brayden is the cutest thing! Nevada is always telling me she love's me , and I always remind her , Nevada one day when you tell me that you hate your mommy, I'll tell you nooooo you love your mommy forever, just like you love me!!! Living with a child that doesn't care for you is the most unreal pain a parent can bear, I hope you don't have to go thru that!

On the kids note though , on my last trip out , I had the joy of taking Nevada to her school daycare class where I surprised my other grand daughter when I walked into the room! Jaida just kinda stood there looking at me! LOL Then came and gave me my hug!

They both love their day school, and its nice to see them playing and learning alongside other kids.

So on that note I'm posting some pic's of my angels , that do more for me than they even know.Here are my angels , they are just the cutest!!

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Sunday, I finally got up!!

Yup , Rolled over , looked at the clock by the bed and went , wow almost 10 am , time to drag this body outta bed!!!! So that's what I did. Went online to do the important things like check mail, see how cold it will be out today, read Jody's blog, you know the important stuff.

I finally grabbed a shower , put on the face , lol . Actually used a blow dryer on my hair which I admit I don't use often. Oh course I threw on the sweats , cause I live in them!!! So now I'm looking human.

Planning on going up town this afternoon to kill few hours of this day, It's what people do around here in Dauphin to humor themselves, due to you meet people , sit and have coffee with them and then go home. Sometimes I have to admit the older people have funnier topics to listen to. I get a kick outta some of them.

Looks cold out , but sunny so that makes for a good day I guess, Leah is sitting her eating her bone treats and well I think Meitz has found a spot to pass out again , she's a old cat and likes it that way.

You all have a great day ,since wow half of it is almost over and afternoon is arriving !

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OOppsss Its Saturday ...............thank god for the readers of the world to let me know!!

Well here we are again , another week came and went by ! Today I know I should be cleaning up the house, looking around and yup it does need a good cleaning. Sometimes I tell myself I'm going to hire a maid , but then I think nope tried that once , I cleaned before she showed up!!!! So that doesn't do anything for me , So Maid I shall become !

I love this new site , it does have somethings to get used to , It's like change, why do we hate change???? Don't you find people do? They get so stuck in the same thing that once change is thrown into it , they become totally lost! Oh man have I been LOST!!!!!! LOL

Like when I used to work in a grocery store , know how to tick off old people???? CHANGE the store around !!! Yup that will do it! They get very upset. Do they think it was my idea to put them into such a state of confusion??? Think about it ........heck I was just as confused!!!

Oh well that's my brain picking thought of the day.........oh I'm not saying I'll have others , especially the way mine works ....but heck its cheap free humor!

So until then .................clean queen I shall become!

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Today is the first day of my thoughts on this site!

Well , a new beginning, 2008 ! So how does one start? Been a busy first 11 days , worked , went home , had the dog fixed ( she's not happy about that!) I am!!

I worked on this website all afternoon with my neice and her friend, kept me busy! Now its almost 8 pm , not much happening so I'm sure I'll be asleep soon , tomorrow is another day.

Going to be putting in alot of work hours with my client who's in a wheelchair, her hubby is leaving town to go down south for 2 weeks , great pay!!! Get that new fridge and stove maybe?? we will see.

Don't really have anything else to add , but never fear sometimes I get a really crazy topic in my head and I run with it ........hahahhaa so we'll see!

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